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41 weeks

Because I have to get it out the universe somehow and I have no good outlet or go-to person: I am one week past my due date, and I am fine with that. I would like to meet my baby but there is nothing wrong with me, or her, and therefore I plan to just wait her out and let her come when she’s ready. This does not seem controversial.

And yet…

The Advice. Assvice? Induction questions. Suggestions. Yes I have tried walking. Yes I have tried spicy food. No I have not scheduled an induction. Why not? Because…well, why are you, my casual coworker, even ASKING me that question? But to answer it, as honestly as possible: because I do not want to, or more accurately, because WE do not want to.

What is wrong with waiting? What is wrong with being patient, taking a deep breath, and letting things happen on their own? I am being made to feel like I am to blame, like the world is waiting and I am letting it down. And in my feeling fine, sunny weather mood I can handle it…but every once in a while these 41-week-pregnant hormones rear up and I just want to cry, or ask “why are you attacking me?”, or beg people to stop making suggestions about what *I* could be doing differently. I so appreciate the nice, supportive things that some people say to me like “well, any day now!” or just a general “good luck!” The negativity, the accusations, they just don’t help.

Part of the problem is that I’m still going to work, and I work with a variety of people with different opinions who obviously feel they know me well enough to weigh in on what they see as a shared process. Usually I’m glad to still be working since the alternative would be sitting at home doing nothing, burning up leave time and feeling sorry for myself. Instead I get to get up every day, get dressed, put on makeup, and go out into the world. However, “the world” is getting less and less friendly and more and more judgmental.

It’s just one week. And I’m not afraid to say that I think this baby might want another week too.

12:52 p.m. - 2011-06-06

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